I love the grocery store. I love whole foods, I love my little local store .5 miles from my house, and even the grocery store in Germany where I could not read any of the signs. Frankly, I just like being surrounded by food.
However lately this has REALLY been ticking me off every time I go to the store:
It looks like an innocent banana, but hang on…read what it says!
It says to “lose weight.”
When I see this I start thinking “shut up, you stupid bananas you don’t know me”. Immediately, I realize I am having a conversation in my head with bananas and there is probably a diagnosis for that in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM IV).
Our society does not delineate between healthy and skinny. There is something about weight loss and pictures of skinny people everywhere. But there is a HUGE difference between healthy and skinny!
My freshman year of college I was obsessed with numbers on the scale. I would weight myself everyday…all day. I remember one night having a dream nightmare one night that I weighed myself and I had gained four pounds. I woke up in frenzy and went directly to the bath room to weigh myself – whew! Thank goodness I had not gained four pounds!
I would allow myself to have one full meal a day. It would be something like greasy Chinese or 5 cookies and ice cream. Other than that meal I would eat a fruit or pour the packets that season ramen noodles into hot water and drink it. I would not eat the noodles, just the packet.
I know this all sounds crazy, but it worked.
I finally got burnt out on starving myself and allowing my self-esteem to be defined by numbers on a scale and quit all of the nonsense.
It has taken me a long time and a lot of work to achieve “healthy”, but I feel like I have done it. I say that humbly knowing that “healthy” is always a work in progress and must be maintained daily. I am not skinny, and I weight more than I did in college. However now I eat a MINIMUM of 3 healthy meals a day and of course I save room for splurges when they are necessary.
I exercise – I run 15 -20 miles a week, I go to body pump, I do Pilates – bottom line I feel good.
I wish the bananas our society would stop putting so much focus on being skinny and losing weight and put more emphasis on being healthy. Perhaps then we would start seeing results.